blogg #12

I need to start to being more motivated on what I am doing. Basketball is one of the things that is important that I need to pursue in life but its getting harder for me. I don't know I just feel like giving up. My body is giving up on me my soul is tired or listening to the stuff people say. I just don't know I don't think I can take it no more. Everything is getting to me my problems at home that I have to deal wit I have problems keeping up my grades as much as I try so hard I still manage to get low grades. I got problems at practice wit the coach or frosh telling me stuff why am I here that I am wasting my time that I should get another class instead of having basketball. All this is really getting to me I am not a robot I got a body just like everyone I get tired my body is worn out I got a heart like everyone else so why do people act like I don't treat me all stupid. I got problems but I still try and people just see me laughing because I don't let other people know what I am feeling. I don't like involving people I do everything on my own. I don't like involving my girl friend I don't want her to worry or hurt over this I need to take this head on. No matter what I wont look back and regret anything I did now that I think about I shouldn't everything I did is for a reason I don't care if I have mest up in the pass I am still here I been trough a lot and survived the game of life. I need to play this game with a strategy I need to control my life not let anything bother me because at the end of the day im doing this mainly for my princess which is my girl friend all this I do for if it wasn't for her ill be messing up worse by now. This is for her I will keep going I want to give her the best in the future for me and her I don't care how much I suffer now but in the future it will pay off I know so.

Making promises #11

I made a promise to my girl friend and the basketball team that I will dunk in 2 weeks. So far I have 2 days and my leg muscles hurt I been working hard. I been jumping up and down for 1 hour for 2 days now and it does work I feel like I can jump high. Today in practice I am going to see how high I can jump. I want to see how far away I am from dunking. This will help my game out a lot. This can take me to another whole level. More people will respect my game and see watt I can do. I want other teams to fear me and my team. So I can get people to see me. I want to get a chance to get a scholarship for basketball. This is a ticket out our coach from varsity was telling us we got a chance 2 people got scholarships and then mike who is a Jr already has one. He was telling us that they opened a big window for us to play basketball in college more teams will look at us now. That more opportunities are being made for us and its a great feeling. I just need to take my ticket out of here I will take it no matter what I will work hard for this.  ITS MY TURN

Living to my potential blogg #10

Every time I come to practice I take the challenge even though the couch is always yelling at me telling me stuff. There has been a lot of the players that don't get yelled at or anything that just walk away. I'm the only loyal player that hasn't left him there alone I always show up to every practice since day one and he's always saying that frosh sucks that no none even shows up to practice that he wastes his time here with us. when I'm always there early and ready to work. Now its completely different he's favoring players now he puts me aside. I been trying to raise my grades because I got into a contract were I have to keep up my grades and its hard for me school isn't easy for I try hard but sometimes I don't get good results. So the past 2 weeks I been asking the main coach if I can leave when the bell rings to do my homework so I can finish and catch up with my grades. He was ok with it he was happy I was doing it but the coach from frosh looks at me like whatever's like if I'm trying to get out of practice but no I been making up late work. Just yesterday one of the players he likes asked him to do the his work too and he was happy he shake his hand and smile and he doesn't do that to me but I don't care no more I'm serious I'm done whit his dumb attitude. I will continue I'm not even doing this for him so I don't care about his opinion I'm doing this for my girl friend she loves to see me play she was there every game watching me cheering me on making me feel happy to play through the injuries I still played I just went to the trainers to get taped and got back into the game because I did it for her not for the coach. I'm doing this for my 2 older brothers too my brother that had a chance to become a pro in the NBA I'm also doing this for my older brother that left too Detroit Georgia he's always been there for him and he wants me to do this so I'm doing this for these people who care about me not for that coach that sits there just telling us what to do and if we have fun he makes us run. The last reason I don't quit is because of the varsity coach he's a great coach he gave me a chance in the program he even went out of his way to get me a contract so I can still play even through disappointing him like that he's still doesn't judge me or treats me different. So I will live to my potential mainly for my girl friend.